what I did last night

last night I watched a few films and drank a few martinis along with them. It was a rather cold November night. I had the gas fireplace going and had the lights out. I sat in the dark alone watching and drinking. I thought it was fun. I wasn't depressed or paranoid. I thought I was actually doing something toward finding work in writing. I'm constantly stressed about not being produced or published. It seems that I don't really work at it and it's something that I have to get over and spend some time with if I want to amount to something as a writer. I haven't written on my screenplay in two months. I've set a goal for myself to write for two hours a day when I don't work at my part time job. It was a fun night. I read the New York Times and got the Hollywood Reporter in the mail. I haven't read it yet. It's terrible about all those sexual harassment scandals that are ruining peoples' careers. I suppose they are on the wrong side of history. it sure is a thorny topic to discuss. I just hope it doesn't turn into something like McCarthyism where people are hunted down for what they did years ago. I remember being in law school and having a tremendous amount of pressure put on me by feminism. It seemed that all the women were radical feminists. It was thrust upon me. It was a "new" reality. It drove me crazy. There was even a woman Professor who, when using the socratic method, was described as "the lape rape." I thought that was really bad. I flucked out my first year.  I think it's too bad that women have become above criticism and beyond reproach. I remember back to prohibition where women were the motive force behind that failed experiment. I hope we don't go down that road again. I live in upstate New York. There are many women leaders. There is a US Senator who is a woman. Our local assembyman is a woman. There are many women that work in many professions. I dare say there is equality between the genders. Last night as I was reading the New York Times Opinion page I came across an article that described the present political mindset that seems to plague not only New York but the country as a whole. It described the "seige" mentality. In the end it led the writer to say that we are obsessed with being a victim. Either on the left or right, it seems that we all think of ourselves as victims somehow. I thought the article was very perceptive. And when I started my day today I thought that this will be one day when I don't think of myself as a victim. It seems an impossible task when everyone around you thinks they are a victim and the burdens of history are so heavy, but so far it has been a rather enjoyable day. Further on I remember a woman I met back in grad school. I was wearing a shirt that said "brooklyn" on it. She asked me if I were from Brooklyn. I responded that I was not. She said I couldn't wear the shirt because I was not from Brooklyn. I thought that she was ignorant. And that she was continuing some tribal way of thinking about the World. With the holidays upon us the World often becomes so divided between religion, race, geography, ethnicity, and nationality. It's too bad that there are still people like this woman in the World . It would be a far more peaceful World if people accepted other people and their ways and opinions. We all have to live together. Even with people from Brooklyn.